http://omegaprime00.livejournal.com/44710.html

I obviously would like to say that just before you deleted Melissa's response it shows that you prolly don't truly mean anything with what you said above about trying to repair the damages that have been done.

Anyways, Melissa and I have talked hours & hours about everything and we came to the conculsion that it would be best that we kept things the way they are, like she said in her post.

"i want to believe you are sorry,
and you have changed,
but right now,
i just can’t.
all the pain and hurt is still there,
and i’m not sure when and if i will be ready to let it go."

I can say yes there's apart of me that wants to try to repair the things that happened in the past but we are more then enough happy with things are now. If we come across at anytime I will have no problem of small talk but anything else is asking too much. I doubt at any time in the future anything will change between us, and I'll speak for melissa and myself right now.

We will be happy to keep things the way they are.

As well Melissa's Comment that was deleted/screened, but saved luckly.

my comment back..
in all honestly,
a part of me wants to forgive you,
but a bigger part just can't.
what happened caused so much pain,
and tears.
it was a huge hurdle in mine and andrews relationship,
we made it through,
and are stronger than ever,
but i still comes up every once and a while,
and it hurts as much as it ever did.

i want to believe you are sorry,
and you have changed,
but right now,
i just can’t.
all the pain and hurt is still there,
and i’m not sure when and if i will be ready to let it go.

andrew and i have done a lot of talking about this,
about the future if our friendships together.
we decided that we have changed a lot,
and we are very happy with the way things are now.
we have never been happier,
and felt more comfortable with each other,
we love the way things are going for us.
in our talks we decided that we don’t need to risk being hurt again,
we are perfectly fine the way we are.

and the whole trust issue?
my trust was broken,
and that will take a lot to gain back,
i’m not even sure if it can be gained back.
i’d like to say i am sorry about that,
but i have nothing to be sorry for.

i guess what i am trying to say is this..
i love andrew more than anything,
and i don’t want to do anything that can jeopardize our relationship,
and by being your friend,
that would be exactly what i would be doing.

melissa.

So there you have it this is for Melissa really for what happened.

Published by :omegaprime00 2006-05-08 13:08:40.0