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About six weeks ago, my troublesome and ever-so-confrontational mother slammed the phone down on me with the following final words, said in the coldest possible voice: 'I'm delighted to be rid of you'. In the olden days that would have read, 'I hereby disinherit you from my will, scum-bag daughter of mine'; or 'do not darken my doorstep again, scumbag etc'. Well, that six-week-ago call marked the end of twelve months (and the rest) of real trouble from mum: during that time, as I mentioned in previous entries, she claimed back a very large long-term loan with added cumulative interest of 50%; she also commented that, when my dad hugged me, 'you looked just like lovers---it's obvious to anyone watching that you are lovers'. (These two got divorced 35 years ago.) So now I haven't had any communication with mum for six whole weeks. It has felt really strange, but it's also been very liberating and peaceful.
But now I'm kind of wondering if it's ok to be not missing her at all. To be perfectly honest, my life can now be described in the following terms: free; easy; relaxed; unstressed; unharassed; and all other synonyms for peacefulness. Perhaps it's because Xmas is a time when families come together that I'm thinking about all this. You know, given that she's my mum, should I make the effort to reconcile even though she drives me mad?
Published by :sherod 2005-12-19 21:41:12.0
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