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Major depression, back and rib pain, and the feeling like I'm going nuts.

My car swerved across 95 north and slammed me (we spun a few times) into the guardrail at the other side of the highway. My door was dented into my side, and I walked away from it. My car won't start, the entire driver's side is FUCKED. My passenger was okay, but any faster and I would have died. My airbags didn't deploy. It's the first time in my life where I legitimately thought I was going to die.

One second it was fine, then it was ice, and then I thought I was going to die.

Then I found out that my best friend from home was hospitalized.

Then I found out that my best friend in Pittsburgh, who was with me in the accident, might have to leave soon ... for good.

So I don't really know what to do. I don't even care about the car anymore. I'm going to the doctor soon and probably end up going to counseling services. I jumped about a mile high when I heard tires squeal down the block. Then I started to cry.

Accident happened on Friday. I was too fucked up to really cope with it until yesterday. Yknow, when I was back in Pittsburgh. I'm so glad I was with someone two nights ago, or I probably would have never slept.

Fuck school, I want my life normal again.

Published by :bunnyofcolicab 2007-03-20 14:36:51.0